Preface

Hi from early morning in Depok, very near from South Jakarta, Indonesia.

I started creating my blog yesterday afternoon in my office. Suddenly I had a willing to start my own blog. At least it's helpful for myself to have my journal of how to get pregnant.

Yes, this 2014 I and my husband agreed to start our plan for me to get a very 'easy' and a 'safe' pregnancy.

First step I've changed my obgyn to Dr. UF Bagazi in Brawijaya women & children hospital. We will see him today at 10 am.

I have changed my obgyn twice for the last past 2012 & 2013. Both years was a very hard try for me. Been having my 2 failed pregnancies. The first was in october 2012, me and Aryo were so very happy expecting twins. While we saw our obgyn, Dr. Sawitri, in Pondok Indah Hospital, she said it were twins. We're so very shocked & happy.

We had a biweekly check up for 3 months with my other obgyn, Dr. Rudiyanti in  Ramsay Bintaro Premier Hospital (we changed our obgyn because we didn't felt we had enough information from the last doctor). The doctor also wasn't so very communicative about what we were facing. Until in the 3rd month, the doctor said the baby won't survived. Because I had a blighted ovums. The baby slowly disappear. Not growing for it's supposed inch.

shocked! I cried on my way home. My husband did too.. he said he was sorry. We can afford it later. Next week after, I tried to have another opinions. So I went back to my obgyn in Pondok Indah Hospital. She had the same opinion.

A very sad journey but we have to face it. We agreed to have our small surgery with Dr. Sawitri. I chose to did that instead of took pills because it faster than pills. Because I had to go back to work.

That surgery was a new experience for me. My insurance covered it but the condition said that they did not cover the room charge for such surgery. So after hours of healing, we went home. With my condition was still under drugs pressure. I felt like flying. And I ate a lot! Hahahaa there always be the funny part of a hard times. My husband and my sister were laughing all the way we went home because I talked much and you know.. like drunk. Hahaaa..

The 2nd pregnancy was in february 2013. We're not yet had the plan for getting our 2nd chance. But I believe God has it. That was the hardest pregnancy I had. I changed my obgyn to Dr. Karmini but still in Pondok Indah Hospital. She said while I had USG, there's no signs of pregnancies. But I tested it was +. With 3 different merk.

Dr. Karmini said that I should have my biweekly check up. To see how was it grew. Still, we couldn't see my signs of pregnancy until my 7 weeks. The doctor said that if I had such bleeding please refer to emergency.

While I took bedrest for the next check up for the 8th week, in Saturday morning 15th March, I had that such bleeding. Shocked but I know what to do. I asked my maid to packed up my things. I cleaned up the bleeding. I couldn't even remember how it hurt. But it was hurt so very much! I couldn't breath, my stomach cramps. Felt like I'm gonna die.

At the emergency, the doctor refers me to have usg with my obgyn. Dr. Karmini said that was a hard bleeding in my stomach so that I barely could not breath. "Soon you have to search any available surgery room, I'll handle the surgery myself. We should help the mom first", she said.

That was a roller coaster.  My husband cried, family panicked. Mom and Dad was there while I waited for the time of surgery. Sister do too. Even my friends came by.

I did not know that my fallopian tube was damaged, so the ovary torned. So now I just have my one health fallopian and ovary. But I really positive that I will get pregnant. So.. for the mums had such experience, don't be sad. Keep the spirits up and pray!